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The Road Before & After Surgery
July 21, 2017
Take Your Time Woman! Relax...
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Day 2755-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Not only are we both on a mission!

But today my body finally fell out of mission. BAH! I believe that my body literally screamed this morning, "Take your time woman! Relax..."

We all had such an amazing time last night. I however, did end up trying a few new things when it comes to solid food. Sometimes a GP'ers worse enemy. In general...Any solid food. I have been doing my best to slowly introduce a few new things through out the day. Slowly building on a very limited diet that consists of mainly liquids. I assume that maybe there is a reason why. I guess one also figured out why fried green tomatoes might not had been such a wise choice. 1 tomato could had possibly been A-OK. But not 2 fried green tomatoes. LORDIE! I also decided to be really bold by ordering a small side of the restaurants famous, peanut slaw. Sure, no red meat, no fish nor any other type of meat or seafood. I figured staying with greens, vegetables and a safe decaf iced tea, lemon on the side would be safe enough.

Maybe then. But not later.

I had plans today to finish up the very last little bit still left with the bathroom repairing and repainting project. Today. Not tomorrow. But what doesn't stay down, must come back up. No more crazy peanut slaw or fried green tomatoes for this gal. And I had a lot of leftovers to bring home. Eric ate those today. I am back on liquids for at least a few days. Hahahahaha! There is still no reason why we can't take a road off the same ole course with GP. I honestly must say, that so far it has been more successful than initially anticipated with reintroducing solid foods back into my diet. One small step and one 'small' spoonful at a time. Lesson learned!

At least we had lots of wildlife visitors through out the sunny, cloudy, rainy and then sunny again kind of day here in the country. We sure needed the rain and so did the deer and their super cute babies! The creeks that run along our property and through out the wooded hillside were running dry. Even the deer need to eat and have plenty of water in order to survive. Eric was on a 24-hour water mission over the past week. As fast as he filled the birdbath, the faster the water was consumed. Our pride and joy deer, we named Dots, is so spoiled that she literally just sleeps outside in eyes view of our living room window. Talking about spoiled! But very much well worth it!

Boy is Santa going to happy with us this year! His deer will not only be super healthy and ready for another trip around the world, delivering gifts to all the good little boys and girls! But I overheard by a few elves that we are so far on the TOP of the NICE list! Heeheeheeheehee!

And as far as Santa's deer...They are looking very much happy, healthy and ready as ever! Even the babies...


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July 20, 2017
A Most B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L Day! :)
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Day 2754-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Time to take a break from all of the ongoing projects!

Time to take a break....To get out and enjoy~LIFE

It seems that not only are we on a painting mission! But so are Dr. T and Jo! What a most beautiful gift! The start of a most B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L kind of day!

We don't get out very often with dear and close friends. Those whom are just like family to us. Always lending a kind ear or helpful hand through out our life. There are no words to describe how happy we were to meet Dr. T and Jo out for dinner. Time to take a break from the monotony! Time to take a break in order to get and enjoy this adventure called~Life.

It's been quite awhile since going out to dinner. It's also been a little over 5 years since we had been to the same exact restaurant where we ate dinner on the day we got married. I figured, why not share a really super nice and quite historic place on our side of town. A hop, skip and jump from their hometown back in Ohio. Who doesn't love really good food, a beautiful artsy atmosphere and of course...Great company! I forgot what it was like to enjoy dinner out together as a group. In a group setting. I assume sometimes my gastroparesis and anxiety get the best of me. I will always be a work-in-progress. But today was a major break-through for this gal!

HAPPY~HAPPY~HAPPY

We all had such a great time! I also forgot how it feels when you smile and laugh so much that your mouth hurts. Hahahahaha! It was honestly just what any doctor would order. Even Dr. T! A most beautiful evening out with dear and close friends. So many stories to share about life in general. What a wonderful time! What wonderfully kind hearted and amazing friends! We all couldn't have had a better time. Spending an evening out, enjoying life...Together.

Isn't that what life is truly all about? Sharing and caring. Plenty of laughter and a whole LOT of smiles!

Thank you so much Dr. T for the most beautiful artwork. We still insist that his new hidden talent should be showcased in some type of art gallery! Jo is also a very skilled and exceptionally talented artist! She was so kind to bring me a gift of her many paintings, printed on note cards. It was very thoughtful of them both! The artwork of course is very appropriately themed for our continued repairs and remodeling projects through out our home. The notecards also make a very nice addition to our soon-to-be new home office! All around it was a most B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L day with the most beautiful friends! Life is good. God is good. Life can truly be amazing when you learn how to quit worrying so much. Quit trying to control. Just let it...Be.

Of course, we couldn't end this beautiful day without an evening walk along the river trails. It will always be by far...The smaller things in life that bring the most joy to our little family. The most laughter...The most smiles. A most B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L day!

 


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July 19, 2017
Going OUTSIDE Your Comfort Zone! :)
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Day 2753-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Lately...It's not just myself raising the bar... Eric has officially joined the ranks!

WOO~HOO!!

We both have been finding ways to raise the bar. A far better me, you, today than yesterday, last week, last month and last year. Good changes! POSITIVE changes! We don't do any negative Nancy moments anymore! And we sure don't welcome any terrible tantrums either! Heeheeheehee...

Eric has been on a roll! He continues to even amaze himself when it comes to home repairs! Let's not forget how far I have come with tools and other quite tricky hidden lemon gem repairs left behind by the prior owners. If it needs fixed and not in any normal manner by any means. We have been on a ROLL! We have set the bar higher than ever before! We aren't just embracing change within our lives and within our little family. We are literally WELCOMING and EMBRACING it with open arms!

Here are just a few of our going above and beyond our comfort zone. Moments in the making

 

Manners must be first hand. Not second hand. "Sir, Mam, Please and Thank You." Watching how we speak. As well to each other.

You won't die if it doesn't include sugar and salt within your daily diet. Among other things that are most definitely not healthy. Ask Eric. There is such a thing as, "MEN'oPause." Hahahahaha!

Trying something new such a power tool that comes with bare minimum, if any type of instructions.

Leave the cursing for Andrew Dice Clay. Life is not Comedy Central. HAHAHAHA! A sailor mouth gets you...No Where. NO WHERE...FAST!

You don't need social media apps to make you happy. If anything, limiting your time on social media, to bare minimum time. Means extra time for you to enjoy life.

Don't worry about the grass on the other side of the fence. Worry about your grass ONLY. Sorry to bust your mower. But the grass is most definitely not greener on the other side. This leads us to the next...

Mind YOUR P's & Q's. Not everyone else's. Don't worry about everyone else and what everyone is doing. Worry about yourself. Then you will find the key to true happiness!

We don't do certified mail. We have also learned that if someone or anyone calls and does not leave a voicemail or a detailed voicemail message. Then don't worry about it. It's not that important.

Daily greens need not have to be chewed. Eric has learned that even if your stomach doesn't agree the first time with pro-power organic greens. Try, try and try again. Eventually your body will agree! Same holds true with getting our of your GP diet comfort zone!

And...Most importantly... Shower those with kindness! Never judge a book by it's cover. Everyone has their own battles. Be kind. A simple smile will do!

 

 


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July 18, 2017
Being In the Moment...
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Day 2752-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Being in the moment...Living in the moment. There are days, like today, where we need to be both.

Being & Living

We have been keeping extremely busy with our huge house FLIP! The days and hours seem to just fly on by~ We have a lot to keep us busy. Yet days like today...Keeping busy, on top of being productive is a good thing! Actually...A blessing in disguise! Days like today. If we didn't have so much to keep us busy. One could really let their brain take over with far scarier stuff. I am thankful to have such amazing support and encouragement from Eric. Especially when new news isn't what anyone was anticipating. With the help of my therapist and LC, life coach. Some medical information should be shared in hopes of possibly helping someone else whom might be in my shoes. Symptoms that to most, would make no sense. But symptoms that could possibly help you stay one step ahead! Medically.

With a few tests that came back far worse than just a few months ago. The remaining lab work also came back over the past few days. It isn't about...Why. It's about...HOW can we help you to proceed forward. When your body starts throwing out some very strange symptoms. Those new symptoms should be shared with your oncologist and other treating physicians. Never try to play, 'Doctor.' Listen to your body! Leave playing doctor to your treating physicians. For reasons that really wouldn't matter nor change anything. I only have one functioning kidney. The drastic changes within labs are due to changes within my body. The kidney that is working isn't filtering properly. We could assume lots of things that have contributed to the cause of losing function of one kidney and damaging the other. Tumors continuing to block organs, bad cells continuing to scramble upward. But would knowing really change anything? Would it change the outcome? No. I am leaving decisions within the hands of my medical team. Life will go on. Life does go on. Same as it always has for this gal on a mission to continue defying the odds.

Being in the moment means finding ways to enjoy life. In the here and now. Finding hope, happiness and ways to create new memories. My dear and close friend Kev and his son are doing just that while taking a cross country trip visiting national monuments through out the great USA. New memories and moments shared between Father and Son. Living in the moment means embracing the good times and the bad times. Finding that silver lining! We will always face obstacles through out our lifetime. Some worse than others. But if we take those obstacles and find a way to power through them by being and living in the moment. We will then realize just how blessed we truly are! There is always something to find in life that brings about a HUGE SMILE! You just have to know where to look and allow your heart to lead the way~


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July 17, 2017
First...A Tennis Ball. Now...Weather Stripping??
Mood:  surprised
Now Playing: Day 2751-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

OH...The JOYS of finding all sorts of wonderful hidden lemon gems left by the prior owners...

You know. The kind that hits you out of nowhere! We thought that the ole tennis ball taped on the wall with painters tape was a classic gem find! Oh no...Not as of yesterday evening. This is what I found while repairing the ceilings in the addition part of our kitchen.

I wasn't honestly sure what the heck was going on with this part of the ceiling??. Once I got the ladder out of the garage, and brought it into the house so I could take a much closer looksee. Did I then realize that the prior owners not only 'didn't' properly seal a huge gap that went from one section of the ceiling into the attic. But they used a long piece of black weather stripping. OH...Boy... Hmmmmm... I assume that maybe they ran out of painters tape to just literally tape the open gap from the ceiling into the attic. Of course, just being facetious if you know what I mean. It took awhile in order to figure out how to tackle this self-repair nightmare. But I am a gal on a serious mission! There is no stopping me or my huge tool bench of various home improvement supplies!

While the kitty gang played to their hearts content. At least staying out of the way from a gal on a mission! It took me a little over 3 hours before successfully tearing down and repairing another big ole mess! I am still chuckling at our big painters taped tennis ball find. Now I guess you can say that anything is possible with a house of hidden lemon gems! Heeheeheehee! Give them a round of applause though..."A" for effort! At least they did attempt to find something around the house to use, instead of just heading to a local hardware store and doing repairs the correct way. The first time. Nah! They must had known that we like a challenge and rightfully so, accepted this huge challenge of flipping a house literally inside out. UPSIDE down!

There isn't enough oriental tea to help keep me alert. I really don't need the tea, because we know that come next room to repair and repaint. There will always be a good laugh and enough to keep us alert and super busy! What a great theme to our soon-to-be fresh new home~County Coastal. By the time we are finished with the house. And the various contractors are finished on their end. We will be more than ready to relax our cares away this upcoming winter season!

Appropriately themed and now successfully finished...The right way.

R-E-L-A-X

 


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July 16, 2017
Setting The Bar...HIGHER!
Mood:  on fire
Now Playing: Day 2750-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Here we go!

Time to set that personal bar even higher than before!

I am proud to say that it has been officially one week since completely cutting sugar out of my life. I am also happy to say that I have slowly been successful at introducing all sorts of fresh cut, steamed-no salt, mixed vegetables into my diet. Let's just say that I have fought back the ole sweet tooth with every bit of will power in my body! My LC-life coach, challenged me a week ago to cut all sugar out of my diet. At first, I laughed and looked at her as if she had just asked me to cut off my arm. Hahahahaha! The reason for such a drastic change in my diet, as well completely stopping all pain medication. Is quite obvious. Add the results of one very important lab report changing within a mere 6 weeks from a not-so-normal low of 6.9. As of this weeks report...A scary low 1.9.

Time to set that personal bar~WAY HIGHER!!

When I am craving sugar. My LC has me stop and then ask out loud one very important awareness question. "Am I really craving sugar? Or...Am I just craving sugar out of boredom, anxiety or for energy?" It's been a really good way to stop all sugar, cold-turkey! The results in just a mere week have been absolutely CRAZY! I can't wait to see how I feel in a month! Sure, I have my weak moments. But stopping before I give in and asking myself why am I really craving sugar has been the key so far with my success. When it comes to introducing fish back into my diet. After a long absence...No dice! It tore me up! Tilapia used to be my go-to fish friend. But not anymore. So my LC has created a diet plan tailored to not just my Gastroparesis, but for other medical reasons. I never could handle the caffeine in coffee or soda. So at least I don't have to worry about going cold-turkey a 'la three different cray-cray ways! Hahahaha!

They say, "You are what you eat." Then sure enough I should be sprouting roots! BAH~HAHAHAHA!

Off to hit the trails this evening for a nice, brisk walk. Exercise of course...Just as important for the human body. Dr. T said that with already such a limited diet, no red meats. I should live till I am 100 years young! We will see as soon as I try out Jo's, Tia Chi Chih class this coming week


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July 15, 2017
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MITTENS! :)
Mood:  lucky
Now Playing: Day 2749-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Look who's celebrating their very 1st birthday!

Mittens kitty is officially a year old

TOO CUTE!!

We came across Mitten's a year ago while feeding the birds one morning back in Ohio. Mittens was just a tiny stray kitty that we believe may have gotten lost from her mama and siblings. There was a lot of wooded land behind the house, along with a community park. We didn't expect to see this cute little kitten ever again, but she kept coming back. That's the way it usually goes in our household of fur children. Heeheeheehee!

Lucky kitty used to sit on her cat tree next to the back door. Looking through out the day to see if her little friend would come back so she could talk to her through the window. We always knew when the kitten would be outside because Lucky would go absolutely crazy on her cat tree. Of course...I don't really believe that 'WE' found Mittens that we named after seeing her pretty white paws. Instead we believe that Mittens found us. Her new human family and lots of fur siblings. The month prior to closing and moving into our new home in Indiana. Mittens kitty was adamant as ever to continue paying us visits through out the day. When it was cold, rainy and snowing. Mittens would take shelter under our front porch. Myself and Eric both agreed that NO WAY could we leave the little cute kitten behind to find food on her own and some sort of shelter. So one day we decided to start feeding Mittens in a feral cat carrier that had a door which closed whenever the cat steps towards the back of the cage. Yes, of course! It is a very safe and humane cage! A great way to rescue lost kitties and those who might be injured.

Eric said that NO WAY will this little kitten walk into the cage, go all the way to the back, step on the hinge door release and begin eating the small bowl of food. Of course, I didn't get my hopes up very high. Especially on the very first try, but we still had two weeks before our big move. It wasn't but a mere few minutes before Mittens walked across the yard, up to the open cage and walked right on inside. Right towards the back of the cage, stepping on the hinge door release and began eating the small bowl of food. Hahahaha! Talking about completely astonished!! The very first try we successfully were able to rescue and officially welcome home Mittens to our little family. Lucky was super excited to finally have new friend indoors when we brought Mittens home after having her checked out by our veterinarian! Lucky never left Mittens side and Mittens never left Lucky's side. It was Mittens kitty who sat by Lucky's side when her heart condition took a tragic turn for the worse. We never pushed Mittens away, but instead allowed her to continue comforting her best friend, Lucky.

Lucky was assisted by us that very sad morning at the veterinarian hospital. We brought Lucky back home before the private crematory service in Ohio so her siblings could understand and begin their own grieving process. Lucky's cremains are now here at home with her family in a beautiful blue marble urn. It was that very day. That somehow...I believe that Mittens didn't actually find us. It was Lucky who found Mittens.

Rescued and adopted animals bring so much love and happiness into the lives of those who welcome them as family. A safe place that fur children can finally call...Home.

We wouldn't have it any other way. Mittens and the rest of our fur children are meant to be.

Happy Birthday  Mittens Kitty!

#Adopt#Rescue#Love


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July 14, 2017
...Let It Be.
Now Playing: Day 2748-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

It's an early morning "RISE N' SHINE" here in the country

I love watching the sunrise! Especially coming from a prior night owl. Now I sleep when my body needs the sleep. Good days present great achievements all around the house with continued repairs and various other projects. Painting is my specialty! But today it was about taking it easy.

If it were up to my brain. Our house would had been flipped in a mere 4-weeks!

Today was an anything, but a normal sleep schedule kind of day. We were super busy with appointments and keeping on top of contractors coming and going by our home warranty company. We continue to be lucky that more than half of the issues with our home are being covered under warranty. Other issues...Well. We aren't so lucky, but all good things, in all good timing! Some might just take a bit longer than others.

This morning I finally decided to speak to a family attorney per request by my LC. And since she is a permalink blog reader. I will be respecting her wishes to be called, "LC." Life Coach. I have heard of some through out my lifetime mentioning about utilizing a life coach. But I really didn't fully understand the profession. I am new to this sort of different avenue that I have decided to take in order to change my life for the better. I was told by my LC that it won't be easy. But all of the hard work will be worth it! So as I continue to set my bar high for myself. Becoming a bigger and far better person than yesterday, last week, last month, last year. I can only hope that all of the positive changes that I make for myself. Might inspire others along the way to make positive changes within their own lives.

Happiness Begins With You

It has been a really stressful, physically overwhelming, past 5 years and 10 months. Still counting. But now I need no longer count any further. After a visit this morning with my specialist to go over recent tests and labs. I was presented with a one-time warning. Levels that came back at their lowest. A very dangerous low. As my specialist sat myself and Eric down in front of their long desk. I was presented with an abundance of knowledge. I took that knowledge, along with my test results to my LC later this afternoon. I also called back the family law attorney. Her recommendations were absolutely in line with what honestly needs to be done. What has needed to be done for quite some time.

Let it be. Fully. Let it be.

Per my LC's request. I brought my laptop to our appointment. A meeting she says of the minds. Having a life coach is different than any type of therapy or therapist. A life coach helps you to make important, yet very positive changes within your life. That includes physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, dietary and even changes that must happen with relationships. Today was about not just embracing a legal name change. But as well embracing the beginnings of starting on a fresh slate. Respecting the new name, the new me and moving forward from the past. "Let it be." My LC, as well therapist also have full access to my blog. What better way to get to know someone's life than by reading about their life. As well stories submitted by many others. Raw emotions. Some even very high emotions. There are pages that were presented to me today regarding blogs expressing raw, deep emotions of hurt. Expressed by expressions of the heart. The past 5 years, 10 months have been nothing but pure, living, hell of the worst kind. I am not talking about physical health. But being eliminated as any family member. Abandoned, disowned, terminated, whatever you want to call it. You can call it what you want, but I call it the ultimate act of betrayal. And there is no turning back.

Today we continued taking the steps, together, in order to, "Let it be."

So...As I opened my laptop. One by one, what no longer has served me well, will here on out...No longer be. I was never much for emailing. What belongs as far as email accounts to the Gastroparesis Awareness Campaign have been closely monitored for any emails sent by anyone whom is to no longer contact that email account. Personal email accounts have now been deleted. Instead, we opened one single, new account for bills and other limited personal matters. What has not served me well, can no longer be part of these new changes within my life, moving forward. When you are no longer part of any family or relatives lives. You learn to quickly adapt and move on. For some, it's not a choice. It is a must. Over the past 2 years it had only become easier for myself and Eric. We had already started new traditions under our roof with our own little family. Terminating final connections for any family member with any family is something that sometimes has to be done. There are choices that you must make in your life that must be. For anyone on the outside, looking in. They are as such. ON the outside. Not on the inside. As my LC so carefully explained, "It is no longer a healthy relationship. Nothing will ever change. Some families don't feel they owe any sort of apology. Let it be."

I only have one social media account on Facebook. I never used messenger or any other android apps for Facebook for a very long time after my last phone ended up having viruses attached by some of the apps. I since then deleted all social media apps. But in order to move on from the past. You first must deal with the past. As we opened my Facebook account, to once again see a high number at the top of the alert bar. We opened and viewed the offline messenger, messages together. One particular message from an individual caught the attention of my eye. But I have learned over the years to not open up anything from this absent relative. So instead my LC read it with my approval. As she deleted the message with my approval. She looked at me and said, "You are right. It was no apology." Then we moved on to blocking those whom no longer serve me well on every single internet level, as well with my phone carrier. If I am to sever ties and make peace with the past. Then clearly I need to let things be.

What was, can no longer be.

Before I filed for my divorce. I was told by a blood relative that if the spouse did not file for divorce. Then I need to do so, because if I didn't, it would look bad after what they did to the family. It's strange now to put all the pieces together. To finally realize with help from professionals that want to see good come out of a bad situation. Such an act of deception and betrayal by any family contacting any ex or ex-spouse behind their own family members back. Without the family members knowledge or approval. It is the ultimate act of deceit. There would never be a future when any family continues welcoming the past. There will never be any sort of healthy future for any ex or ex-spouse who has a current or possible future relationship if they so desperately want to continue acting like they are still married to their ex. Attaching themselves to any ex's family. Worse when you hear that any ex believes they are still married, an uncle, part of the ex's family. So many comment on how strange, bizarre, disrespectful and weird it looks with any ex doing such a thing. Eric spoke to a really good family law attorney this morning who told Eric point blank how this all works.

"When you have a family contacting an ex-spouse after any divorce proceeding. Not respecting and honoring the divorce decree by moving on with their lives because that ex is no longer part of their family. There is bound to be problems. But the ex should not respond and neither should the family respond to the ex. It is a level of respect that should be held for their family member who is no longer married to their spouse. Nothing the courts can do will ever change a thing when any family secretly contacts any ex-spouse without their family members knowledge. My suggestion is to severs all ties. When a ex is so fixated and desperate by any means to still be with the ex's family. Consider it a huge compliment! Maybe not so much if the ex has remarried or is currently in a new relationship. But it is a huge compliment for your wife!"

Eric...Heeheeheehee...He didn't take it as such. That is because he said if his family ever contacted an ex without his blessing, knowledge or consent. It wouldn't be lasting for very long. As for myself. I now see it differently. It is most definitely a very huge compliment!

Today has brought with it, many life lessons that I will apply to my future. Myself and Eric firmly agree with my LC that families just aren't like they used to be back in the day. We personally say it all of the time. But some lessons have to be learned the hard way and the consequences can be permanent when decisions must be made in order to move on and be fully happy. There will be no more holidays, dinners, gatherings, phone calls, letters, emails, gifts, nor any other casual contact by any means. That includes any type of funeral settings. What does not serve you well. Can no longer be.

As this evening, I finally was able to close the last and final door to a very long chapter. What goes on with any ex or any distant blood relatives is no longer my business. It is no longer our business. It is no longer any of our children's business. I will no longer answer nor entertain any information brought before me from anyone. That includes social media or any other form of internet mailings. It is no longer my business. We ask for respect and privacy as we continue placing down permanent boundaries so we may continue moving forward...Happily. There were no painting projects for me this evening. Instead I decided to take a break. Time for an evening of nothing, but pure peace.

I took a deep sigh...Smiled with relief.  Finally. I am free. Free to be...Me.

 


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July 13, 2017
Set The Bar HIGH! Be The Example! Be...HAPPY :)
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Day 2747-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

Change is inevitable

Today I have taken another monumental step in the process of change. Becoming a better me! Perfect? No one is perfect. We all have our own set of imperfect flaws. Far from perfect decisions. What we don't need is to live in the past. A past filled with right, wrong, good and sometimes even bad choices.

With change comes personal growth. Learning lessons from the past and applying them to the here and now. Towards the future. Who doesn't absolutely LOVE a great ending?! The ability to self-reflect by continuing to choose the road to happiness.

I have an amazing therapist whom has also directed me to her friend who is a life coach. The reason? Why of course...To become the BEST possible version of myself that I can be! A far better me than days prior, months prior, years prior, decades prior. The lessons haven't been easy ones. The road before me is placed with what I am sure will be, many difficult hurdles, challenges and temptations. What I am setting is a very high bar. Not just for myself. But for others. I strive to not just set an example. But to be the example. No matter what has transpired or has happened in your past. As my life coach put it best today...

"Let it be."

There are many reasons why I made the decision for a legal name change. The most important one is because I choose to be happy. A choice to be who I want to be and rid of anything that is in my past that didn't serve me well. Things happen. Life happened. I now have the reigns to choose 'wisely.' A fresh start on a clean slate. A new and far better version of ME. It's been hard to make that last and final change. But with the help of others. I have finally realized that no one can create your happiness. The only person to do so is...You, Yourself and I. We all have the ability to be happy. We all have the ability to allow ourselves to be miserable. I now choose very wisely. ~Happy

A huge project still in the making. Repairing and repainting our entire home has not only brought with it many rewarding moments. But most importantly, it has allowed for me to be in the moment of self-reflection. Being at peace with the past. What is and what will be. Welcoming the future on my terms. It's called being undeniably, absolutely, unmistakable, HAPPY! There are times when we all will have our weak moments. But during those times it is when we find our best moments. The power of strength. Being and staying STRONG, determined and FOCUSED like never before!

There are no pity parties on this journey of life. We all create our own happiness and are 110% entitled to it! We all have our flaws. We all have our weaknesses. But one thing we all have is...God.

Today I make another monumental step in the right direction. A chance to change for the better. No one is perfect. Yet we all can strive to be a far better version of ourselves today, tomorrow, next week, next month and next year. A far better and much happier version of ourselves. If sometimes that means making decisions that might not appeal to others. Just remember...Your happiness is determined by one person and one person only.

YOU

My new margarita, country coastal theme dining room...A week in the making. COMPLETE!

H.B. Dieckmann


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July 12, 2017
Unconditional Love~
Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Day 2746-Next GP Chapter... Turning Lemons Into Lemonade :)

 

This view...  It never gets old.

I love the peaceful feeling that comes with living in the country.

Being able to wake up and watch the sun rise on the river...Breathtakingly beautiful! It was an early morning for us. It's been a long week with doctors as well being back and forth at the hospital. Our days have seemed to just mesh together as one. I am limiting myself on sharing medical information due to a group of individuals back in Ohio and the need to not allow myself to be poked fun, mocked or ridiculed any further. With the help of one amazing therapist. We will work together on what is or isn't appropriate to discuss regarding my health on this blog. Privacy. 

One thing I can say as of this morning...It's been over a month now since our beloved Littleblue had to be assisted in order to be with her siblings. Back home, in heaven. There isn't a day that goes by that we don't miss her with all of our heart. There remains a void within our home. I tend to believe that holds true for anyone who has lost a member of their family. A fur child with such unconditional love. A love that has no boundaries. Myself and Eric have discussed the possibilities of welcoming another fur child into our little family. But we have decided to not plan ahead. But to allow God to make the decision for us. We believe that if and when it is meant to be. It will be for special reasons.

In the meantime...What is there not to love about all of the wildlife right here in our own backyard. So many animals, both big and small. Even more babies that we now welcome as part of our daily lives. There are not enough words to describe the most absolute CUTENESS of watching this baby deer look at her mama before slowly going over to play and eat with four super CUTE baby raccoons. Amazing enough, mama raccoon watched via from a tree close by as the baby deer inched her way and then began eating next to the baby raccoons.

LOVE~LOVE~LOVE

Myself and Eric could do nothing but watch in amazement. The interaction between all the mama's and their little ones is a memory that we both will cherish forever. What a blessing! To be part of God's creation. Animals both big and small. XOXOXO

Having the ability to reach out to so many with this blog. Comes with it amazing, once-in-a-lifetime opportunities to connect with some outstanding organizations from all around the world. I'm happy to be able to connect with the Humane Society and share their Ultimate Guide To Pet Adoption.

Having such a huge heart and passion for all animals. It is my pleasure to be able to work with the Humane Society. If you are looking to welcome a new member to your family. Please don't hesitate to contact your local Humane Society and local animal shelters.

Fur babies~Unconditional  L-O-V-E

After interviewing 200 rescues and shelters. We have created the best possible content, precisely because it was written based on the experience of over 200 professionals in this field.

With the best possible content comes the best possible help for these animals that so desperately need the RIGHT person to take them home.

We created not only 1 or 2 blog posts about it, but a series of 12 articles. In these, we talk about the benefits of adopting an animal, the myths, that are all too often associated with adoption. What one should consider what one should consider before adopting and during adoption process. As well tips for taking care of the new chosen pet, new member of their  family.

https://www.homeoanimal.com/the-ultimate-guide-to-pet-adoption
 

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